Saturday, September 4, 2010

Finding my place

I've been struggling with finding where I fit in. Now don't get me wrong, I'm happy to be who I am and I'm happy with being different. I am happy with where I am as a wife and mother and the choices I've been making. So, I'm not struggling with anything in my little world, but I'm having a really hard time finding where I fit in, outside of my little world.

I've always been somewhat of a black sheep in general and have struggled with finding people I really click with. I'm finding this to be an issue even in the homeschool community. I've talked to many really nice homeschoolers. My problem is, I just don't really fit in with most of them either and I want to! So far, almost every homeschooler I've met or talked to are very religious. That does not bother me at all, but I've found that when they realize we are not a Christian family, it makes some uncomfortable and some others tend to shy away. I'm not put off by people being very religious or anything like that at all, I'm just not religious myself. I've noticed people who are starting to homeschool will reach out to others instead of me, even if they have less knowledge to offer in regards to schooling because of the religious aspect. I know it's not on purpose (now and then people will flat out judge me openly for my non-belief, but not too often), but it still bums me out a little bit. The Christian base aside, we're all doing the same thing! Educating our children. I know people want to talk to who they can relate the most to, so I can't fault anyone for it.

Here I am, still looking for my place. I have very unique ideals, views, opinions and beliefs. I fit into both sides of almost everything. I wont give up on finding where I belong though. I know there has to be others out there who feel this way as well.


R said...

Have you looked into what you have around your community as far as secular homeschooling groups or co-ops? Let me dig around and see if I can find the links I had that list what groups there are for each state. I don't know if I still have them or not...

With that, you know how fundamentalist I can be, but I still enjoy "talking" with you! You are very respectful and I think a Christian homeschooler can relate to the education part, being a homemaker, etc. like you are, if anything! Hang in there.

It's funny because I feel like that too...that there are so many online and even here, the bible belt area, that have different beliefs then me and seem to be put off by mine.

Sarah - IMakeLotsOfBabies said...

There are LOTS of homeschooling groups and things like that here, but secular, not so much lol. Another issue I run into is many who aren't very religious, lean more toward unschooling, which I don't agree with.

Anonymous said...

Rachel said a lot of what I was feeling, though I am not homeschooling.

Stay storng, Sarah & you will find your place!

SuziG said...

Sarah, I am so glad that Trina introduced us. I wish that we lived closer together because I'm right where you are, I'm not religious at all.
I know that my daughter isn't anywhere near the age that your kids are, I'm hoping to start teaching her some things next year but she'll still only be a year old so I have no idea where to start. (Suzette)