Wednesday, April 6, 2011

In Our Children's Eyes

My husband and I are not perfect. We each have our flaws, plenty of them, but our children are all still young enough that they think we are Superman and Superwoman. We're amazing, the best looking people in the world, the smartest people who know everything, the people who can do everything right and make everything right. To them, we're pretty much perfect. That's a lot to live up to! We do the best we can to be everything they see us as and we surely fall short, but they never seem to notice that.

Sometimes they will tell me I'm so beautiful or I'll hear them talking about how daddy has such a great job even though we don't like how much time he spends away. My son Wyatt, on more than one occasion has said to me "Mommy, you know everything right? You're really smart right?" I tell him I don't know everything, but I'm smart. I always get a little laugh when one of them says something like that.

When they are punished, they are angry for the time being. But later, they will tell us they know we punish them because we want them to grow up to be good people and not do the wrong things. It still shocks me when they say something like this to me. They actually get it. Times like that, I'm reminded that in all of my flawed ways, I must be doing something right.

They are normal kids, they fight with each other, they talk back on occasion, they try to get away with not finishing school work, they don't always clean up their rooms or playroom when they are supposed to, but at the end of the day, they are really amazing kids.

My oldest is going on 9 and I often wonder how much longer Daddy and I will be perfect? When will he start thinking we're his enemy, trying to ruin his life and make him unhappy? When will he see that we aren't perfect and we don't know everything? It's inevitable, this I know. They will all eventually view us differently than they do now. I just hope that when that time comes, we will have done enough right, that while they realize we aren't perfect, they know we did our best in every way and that we have always loved them more than words could ever express. In the end, that's what I hope for. We want nothing more than to raise them to be healthy, happy, productive adults. We want them to be good, kind people with goals, to be driven and to know the sky is the limit. We also want them to look back and have fond memories of their upbringing.

We still kind of want to be a little perfect in their eyes even when they grow up and know we aren't.

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